ADHD and COVID Quarantine: This is Our Time to Thrive

For those of us with ADHD: while the COVID-19 quarantine is affecting not only us but our support system, what can we do to stay strong and thrive?

One of the biggest struggles for those of us with ADHD, is coping with the lack of understanding on how our brain works. We try to make people – loved ones, friends and even strangers – comprehend why we act this or that way and even what we need and don’t, but for I what see we are all hitting a wall that is bigger than it used to be.

During these hard times we’re going through due to the COVID-19 pandemic, the quarantine is affecting the mental health of that people we needed to rely on, and … it’s a mess. So I wonder, what can we do when the support system we were diligently trying to build is not strong enough or even less stronger than before?

Almost a month ago, I hit a wall. Someone from my “support system (in the making)” hurt me so bad that my meds started giving me side effects and I couldn’t do anything but playing with the Play Station for two weeks. I did feed the cats and cleaned their litter box though…

Allow me one paragraph to explain: on 2015 I found out I my parents were not my biological ones (which I always knew somehow) and then – year after year- I started finding out there was a web of lies that seemed to have no end. The puppeteer was my mother, and our relationship started to fall apart… but, we tried to make it work.

Back to the present, on April 30th I was talking to her about the effects of the quarantine on me and how I needed her to please understand my situation and she said “I’m struggling just like you! We are all feeling like this.” I said, “No, you are not; trust me.”

I have a psychotropic in my head, I need to come up with a new schedule to function as a human being and I am alone… So no, she is not struggling just like us… But still, she is struggling; she is suffering too.

That conversation escalated to a point of no return; and I had to make a choice: to stop talking to her, for good. Loneliness knocked on my door and said “Hey, what’s up; it’s either bed or Play Station; what’s your poison?” You know what I chose.

Screenshot from the game “Kingdom Hearts”. No cc infringement intended

Loneliness is very strange concept for me; I grew up surrounded by a big family that my dad and the army gave me, by another one also big and loud from my parents’ sides and by tons of friends… all of which I no longer have; therefore, being on lockdown with absolutely no one to talk to, made me feel completely lost. So lost, that I installed Twitter back on my phone, which is almost sinful to my brain.

And then I saw a thread initiated by Jessica McCabe for ADHDers to say “I deserve … fill in the blank.” My first impulse was to reply “I deserve to be understood”, and so I did; then I started going through the replies she was receiving and I found myself saying “Me too!” after reading almost each one of those tweets… and they lift me up…

Two things happened after reading that thread; one, I realized – I felt deep inside my guts – that I am not alone; two, I started reflecting “but actually, I am alone; what do I do?”

Since that April 30th, it took me almost four weeks to get back on my feet; and now I can see that – as tough and difficult as it may sound – it’s our time to be bigger. Our ADHD comes with a bullet proof resilience; and even though sometimes a bullet or two get through and make us bleed, they won’t kill us; no, they won’t; they can’t.

Yesterday I went over my parents’ house at lunch time; I knew they would invite me to stay because it was, it is, our thing: Sunday’s lunch. As I entered, I basically said “I’ll only stay if you’re careful with what you’re going to say” and they nodded… and we had a really nice time together (because I ran away before they’d get comfy with me being so cool)

In times like these where everyone is hurting, I’m thinking about my personal ADHD struggles as a topic such us sports or religion: you don’t talk about it at the table. My parents are old and they are feeling very depressed; I am young, and even though I’m hurting I have a resilience they don’t have…

Am I saying “suck it up?” Kind of… But actually I’m saying “trust in your resilience; know that you are not alone.” Everybody is having a really rough time so it’s more difficult than ever for “mortals” to understand us, but – as the thread at Jessica’s timeline showed – we do have each other 😉

I believe it’s time for us to be stronger; yes, one-more-freaking time; and I believe it because I know we can. Having ADHD – its resilience and hyperactivity – has saved me from a lifetime of trauma; and if I came up stronger every time, you can do it too. It is a choice; it is one freaking hard choice to make but it’s doable.

Trust me… trust in yourself, and remember what happens when you spread that funny little thing called love

If loneliness and misunderstanding seems more unbearable than ever, spread some love and rely on our kind. We could be heroes; you know that, don’t you?

Everyday people do
Everyday things but I
Can’t be one of them
I know you hear me now
We are a different kind
We can do anything

Alesso – Heroes (we could be) ft. Tove Lo

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2 replies on “ADHD and COVID Quarantine: This is Our Time to Thrive”

totally feel you. isolation really sucks the big one and it seems people with mental issues have no channel of understanding. seeking professional advice is not in my vocabulary but i wrote about this as well this morning finding channels to calm the nerves. i hate the way life has becoming so chaotic and feel as though we will never recover. stay positive? ahah what the hell is that. chat anytime. find me.

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